Come Forth

A funny thing happens to me when I’m moody. I write poetry. Gobs of it. It doesn’t really matter what kind of mood makes up “moody” as long as it’s intense. Because I’m human, primal emotions are the ones I feel most strongly. Anger, grief, sex… just some of the primitive triggers on my poetry cannon.

As I add to my blog, people who know me keep asking me if I’m ok. My poetry, they say, worries them. I take this as a compliment. Not because I’m trying to freak anyone out but because it demonstrates that my work is affecting my readers. I reassure them that I’m absolutely fine then turn my attention to the underlying issue.

As artists, we channel inspiration through ourselves and into our chosen medium. We see the world and what we need to add to it through a vision that is uniquely ours. When it’s good, our art is the collaboration of both our inspiration and our perspective. Inevitably, in the process, pieces of our hearts and minds are transferred to our craft, revealing ideas, images, perspectives, and emotions that arise from within us, making us visible to some extent.

The implications of this, of course, is that once you start putting your work out into the world, anyone who views it is offered a peek inside your life, or at the very least inside your crazy, mixed up, frequently ridiculous, though quite creative brain. The inevitable revelations that show through in our work leave us asking an important question: How much of ourselves should we reveal?

For me personally, I’ve decided on all of it.

Does that seem over the top? Definitely, and good for it because the truth of that matter is that I am in no way responsible or even concerned with how the world receives my work. It isn’t my job to anticipate the responses of any number of people who might visit it. My job is to tell the story, to put the work out there, to finger paint the canvas of life with colors both inspired and inspiring. If I start filtering my work based on what might offend or what someone might use to design an under-informed judgment about who I am as a human being, well, I should close up shop right now.

As artists we are drawn to passion and prone to provocation. The things that most find disturbing are often our greatest sources of inspiration. We lurk in the alleyways of the human experience, looking for a broken piece of reality discarded or ignored by others so that we can fit into something bigger than ourselves, something we can sink our teeth and hearts into, something that moves us… and in turn, might move another. We cannot afford to be timid or shy, to offer up only what we think will be well received. We can only speak from our hearts and paint the world as we see it, and we should never look to change our eyes.

So, come forth, poets and painters. Come forward, sculptors and songwriters. Come up, artists of all kinds. Come into the lightness of creating without a filter, without a care for how the world perceives you. Stand in your place, and let them look. Let them talk. Let them grimace, if they must. I am certain it is infinitely better to explain or defend your work than have it go unnoticed.

Empty Hands

Empty hands…

Starting over…

The car is crashed,

the chips are down.

I look around

and see no survivors,

a smoking gun,

and a dangling toe tag

with my name written in red,

the killer and the killed,

the leader and the misled,

a blood blurred vision

of memories swiftly fading,

stars bursting

into darkness,

silence, peace.

I sleep

just below the surface of responsiveness

waiting for the wounds to heal,

the smoke to clear,

the taste of gun powder

to dissolve.

Slowly a thirst

for sanity,

a will to live,

to move beyond the nightmare

tears

falling on the table

smashing, crashing

like the windshield,

like the handful of chips

that put me all in,

like my skull against the bullet…

and there is nothing here now,

nothing left of me

but skin and sin and

a past to learn or burn from,

and a conversation I am sick of having with myself.

I sit now

nude

staring at my

empty hands

and I realize

that I am starting over.

 

(2010)

Aries Girrrl

(Explicit Language Warning)

 

Orange for fire,

And green like a meadow.

Roll up in my grill

And I’ll cut you –

I’m metal.

I’m monster.

I’m proud –

With my crown in the air

And my feet on the ground.

I’m the chosen

Defender,

Both regal

And horned.

I threaten you once –

Consider you warned

That I’m patient

I’m peaceful

I’m a pretty nice gal,

But fuck with my herd

And I’m taking you out.

‘Cause this is my mountain

And these are my sheep,

And I’ll ram you right off

If you muck up the peace.

So come, sit, stay, love,

Enjoy,

And enlighten.

But do let the rack here

Remind you whose titan.

 

Satyr

I see you there –

Dancing

Wild in the life you’ve created

And kissed by the gods

Who designed you

To reflect the beauty

Of their loves

And in their dreams,

A vision brought forth

From a womb of creativity,

Cradled in perfect imagery,

And careening unchained through the earthly fantasies

Of Olympian kings.

Robust and on fire,

Dionysian kin

Compelling me

In life, and art, and sin.

Warm in the sun

And hot on my skin

You give rise to the restlessness within.

An Ampelos to my divining,

A promise of miracle

And intoxication,

A seduction so complete

It lifts the souls

Off their feet –

They go stumbling helpless toward your gaze.

A gift unto me –

A river that flows

Melodically,

Flutes and horns

Of wine and songs,

An orgy of the senses

That plays on my defenses,

Pulling me down to kneel

On my pedestal

Which you have provided.

And so I raise you up,

Like Krotos to the stars.

This muse mused by you –

A king

Crowned in vine

And thrown in skin,

A whisper of the way things might have been

If you and I

Were “you and I” –

But sadly, we are naught,

As you have yet

To come

To me.