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Falling Down
The pieces are crumbling
Breaking away
Like clay
From the solid form that once surrounded me
Defined me
Was all that I knew
That was built upon you
But now
It’s powder
Just dust
Fistfuls of dirt
On the winds of my changing fortunes
Sand clouds in the desert
I woke in
When the rumbling stopped
When the crashing ceased
When the path that I walked left me weak and diseased
And as the ringing in my ears dulls to a scream
All I can think
Is why,
Why does this keep happening?
Where is the man for whom I can build a castle
A temple
And a throne?
Maybe he’s been
Nothing but a dream
All along.
The Honey Go
They hurry to the hive
Making stops at where the fluids flow
Moving smoothly as they come and go
And whisper as they pass
In hums and beats that ripple like wings
And tickle their feets
And then the honey go.
With wiggling tails
And suspenders pulled
Wide out from chests that heave and ho
Deep down in the honeycomb
They swing around
In joyful bellows
With their happy fellow fellows
And shake when the honey go.
In glistening golds and browns
It pours unto and all around
Coating everything in its soul
Pulling people from their seats
Drawing them across the floor
Toward the so so sweet
That they call the honey go.
Voices shout and vocalists pout
And guitars slide so long
Spilling into the room
The richest, rightest of all the finest
Sounds that ever were
Weeping and groaning
Soulfully moaning
The achingly sexy hue
Of all that flows and alluringly goes
From show to show to show
And at every turn
They come to buzz
About where the honey go.
February 6, 2014
This poem was inspired by the blues club scene from the movie Black Snake Moan with Samuel L. Jackson and Christina Ricci.
He Made Me
I’m made of broken pieces –
Perhaps once part of a whole,
Not certain what the picture was
Before my image was no more.
Many have come to see them,
Sprawled across the floor –
Never to be as they were before
And never really wanting them in any other way
Than their lovely disarray.
Some saw me as a puzzle
And tried desperately to solve my soul,
Others saw just a mess
And left them and me alone.
A few saw a shot at chaos
And went ahead with their own smashing,
Sending my pieces flying carelessly around
As they bounced and bashed unbound…
And then there was you
Who looked at me from above
With tenderness and with love
And saw not the remains
Of something once whole
But the limitlessness
Of what could become of my soul.
My many sharp edges
Became treasures
Where the light reflected perfectly so.
The mismatched colors
Were a spectacle of wonder,
And the missing were never missed.
Hand over mine,
You guided me
With love and creativity,
And in a fashion nearly formulaic
You turned me into a beautiful mosaic.
The Marked
The Marked
It’s sort of like an empty page,
A thing that calls from far away –
A vision of a piece of you,
A thought you have to say.
It grows into a yearning urge,
One that tingles, one that burns,
And whispers through to all you be
“You’re incomplete without me.”
A part of you, a shred of soul,
That’s pushing toward your surface.
A thing your heart just has to say
With volume and with purpose.
It creeps out through your very pores
‘Til you begin to see
Just how and where it needs to go,
Just how it’s supposed to be.
Before not long, you see it there
Invisible but clear –
The missing piece
Of you
Your soul,
Your heart
You have to wear
Upon your sleeve
Quite lit’rally –
No matter what the cost
Because this piece is breaking through
And without, you feel a loss.
So you go and collaborate
With another soul divine,
An artist who can replicate
The piece of heart, a sign
That spells out what you need it to,
To speak the words inside –
A language that is lost on most
You can no longer hide.
Forgive what judgment,
Forget the pain,
For nothing matters more
Than bringing out this piece of soul
Bursting from your core.
And when the buzzing ends,
And when the work is done,
You walk away with soulful peace
So grateful for the gun –
It gives to us
A way to tell
The things that lie within
That shape our minds,
That mend our lives,
That tell of who we’ve been.
And how it looks to others
Means nothing to The Marked
Because we know that what we’ve done
Is show a bit of heart.
If they should hate
Or cry
Or judge,
It is not ours to parry –
For we’re not meant to live beneath
The ceilings others carry.
The stars are ours.
The moons are, too.
The flowers and bones alike.
‘Cause when we look into the mirror
It’s what we see we like.
A part of us,
A piece of soul
That lies upon the skin
And speaks to us
And all around
Of who we are within.
When we behold and see it there
We feel a bit as though
We can’t imagine how we were
Before it came to show.
They say with age
You come to change
And turn on things you’ve placed
Upon your flesh –
They say “regret”
But I say that is based
On those who chose
A standard pose,
A picture piece, not of soul
That came to them
From their within,
And so it has grown old.
When you do this properly –
These marks, they are a part
Of all you are eternally
To death and from the start.
So when my ink is faded
And when my skin grows loose,
I’ll look upon my body
And know this profound truth:
That I lived upon this earth
In this here sack of skin
And never let society
Keep my soul within.
Some things were meant for hiding,
Some things were meant to speak,
And still others meant for sharing, for releasing
So they leak
Out of my mind
Out of my soul
And spill upon my flesh
That’s proud to show
My spirit’s glow
Until it’s laid to rest.
So fear not, hate not, wish not,
Cry not a single tear
For this to me is beauty,
And truth, and love adhered.
The Big Reveal – Poetry and the Author’s Veil
I have often been told, and more often cautiously reminded, how revealing poetry can be. It comes from a different place, they say. It tells a story about the author that no prose ever could. Does it? It seems fairly commonplace to believe that poetry is deeply revealing whether the author intends it or not, but I enjoy challenging that notion.
When I was a girl, probably somewhere in early middle school, I wrote a poem about a child murdering her incestuous father. I remember distinctly attempting to trigger a flare in the reader’s chest, a fire that rose in anger and left in its place the coolness of freedom. In my early 20’s, I wrote a poem in Shakespearian language as a middle-aged man who was undressing, for the first time, the woman he’d desired since boyhood… A personal favorite I intend to include in a larger work one day.
Now, I have never been a child victim turned murderer or a middle-aged man of the Elizabethan era… At least, not to my knowledge. Nonetheless, the poems were highly effective, deeply emotional, and physically stirring. So, who is to say that these works are any more or less revealing than the rest? One could suspect that I was the victim or perpetrator of an unspeakable crime as a child or that my narrative about the amorous couple hints at sexual secrets buried deep within, but readers tend not to assume these kinds of things because these conclusions seem like a stretch. So, readers decide the piece is simply well fictionalized. If I write about the more common events standard to fairly average lives, however, people are more willing to assume all kinds of biographical storylines – ones that may be comprised of equal parts fiction to those that are obviously invented.
When I was a college student – the first time, I was a theater major. One of the many things that I studied (well, as much as I did study…) during that time was Stanislavski. The fundamental idea we focused on was that acting has to come from somewhere. We were taught to draw upon a single life experience that produced the emotions most resembling those being called into the scene and apply them to the situation. It was a very powerful tool on the stage and proves to be just as impacting to the pen.
It is true that artists are creators, and everything we create is in some way an extension of ourselves. It is an emotional expression that is rooted somewhere in our human experience. That is not to say, however, that we have experienced all we exude… even when we are writing poetry. Although poetry certainly comes through on a different channel and has the potential to be more “revealing” than even the most impressive dossier, it is reductive to say that there is more truth about an author hidden in stanza than story. Many poets, with lyricists being one excellent example, weave perfect fiction into meters and rhyme. Frequently, the first person in a poem is just a character as in any other form of fiction, and all it takes to master the skill is a moderately successful trip through Acting 101.
So don’t believe everything you read in poetry. Just because we can make it roll deliciously off the lips and soul with all the rhythm and rhyme of musical meltdown doesn’t mean it is in any way a reflection of a reality in which we, the veiled poets, live. It only means that we are writing well, and that you – my friend – are susceptible to liars.
Some Prisons
Some prisons have walls
That reach to sky
Cells, fences, and gates
That roll powerfully by
Closing in prisoners
Cutting them off
From people and places
They’d formerly been caught.
Some prions have barriers
Invisible to see
That hold us in places
We’d rather not be
With or without
Fear, tear, or pout
They keep us from growing
They dry us right out.
Some prisons are lovely
Set on a hill
That overlooks freedom
But overthrows will
Or captures our hearts
Our spirits
Or minds
And trap us with things
Once wanton, divine.
Some prisons have names
Or titles attached
That hold us to standards
Or rumors
Or traps
Otherwise fine
To all but who know
Of the shackles they bear
Of the duty bestowed.
All prisons hold someone
Like you or like me
From being the person
We wanted to be.
So be it a fortress
Of crime or of fortune
Be it a choice
Or by nature’s contortion
Cometh by parentage
Or cast down as doom
We each find ourselves
Alone in that room
Under shadows that hang
Or with clasping cuff cuts
That slice like a knife
Through our throats
Or our guts
Our souls or our spirit
Our hopes and our dreams
And leave us to ponder
What life would’ve been
If not for the prisons
That capture us all
One way or another
Before that last call.
Ripe Hearts
Pear trees,
and sunshine,
whispering willows,
and pussy willow pillows.
Kissing you
underneath
the falling blossoms
of breezy cherry trees,
whimsical and pink,
like my cheeks,
warm with the heat of
adoration divine.
Your love feels like
cool, crisp juice,
quenching, refreshing,
apple, peach, plum.
Lips are red,
full of blood,
engorged like
sweet, summer strawberries.
I fall onto
the lush green
of a grassy hill
and gaze up at a
canopy of color,
like a shading,
shadowing umbrella
made of tiny green leaves
swaying gently in the sky.
The warmth of you,
like the warmth of sunlight,
covers me as you cover me.
My toes still cool in the air.
As you touch
soft hands to my
soft white tummy,
I fill up again.
Filled with feelings,
I smile and sigh.
A warm breeze wafts by.
The leaves overhead
sound like the ocean.
The grass is cool
beneath us.
The sun is warm
above us.
Our arms and legs
wrapped up like
grape vines
on a fence of
faith and trust.
You kiss me again.
Your kiss is so sweet,
sweeter than
Queen Anne cherries,
more like
mandarin oranges.
Heaven above,
how I love
the taste of
your warm
and juicy
passion fruit kisses.
8/2000


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